I don't know if I can keep up with certain club events.

Symphoria's having one I love, but I can't seem to like...drag myself out of this artblock hole to do anything for it.
And I REALLY want to finish MP III, I really really do, but I have no motivation for that anymore either. I'm kind of in this state of "What am I doing with my life" still, and though I'm still content with life as a whole, I'm very very very discontent with myself as an unmotivated artist.

Maybe I need to step away from the groups and the clubs and the like and try to get back into JUST art. I don't want to quit any clubs, Symphoria and ZOC most especially because I love them so much and a lot of my friends come from these two places. MP is just awesome too but...

I don't know. Not sure on what to do just now. I need to do SOMETHING though, that's the whole point. Just have SOMETHING or other in my life right now that feels like I'm DOING things, instead of sitting around doing nothing forever.

Hm.

Also, thank you guys for the messages on the last journal. Keeping it there for future motivational reasons. I don't come to deviantart but once in a blue moon these days, but at least I know I still got my friends here. Hm.

I think I'll attempt drawing some fanart for a while. I haven't done so in a very long time and even though I want to create original things, fanart's where I started and I can just kind of...chill there for a bit until I get my mojo back. Maybe.






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