And to all a good night, cause I'm seriously gonna pass out after this.

I MADE COOKIES! 8D Shortbread cookies. Everyone says they're awesome, and it makes me happeh 8D

I have two tins of cookies, plus another two PLATEFULLS of cookies @_@ lots. One tin is going out to mah bestie =Asraniel in wout in Florida. Sorry it's gonna be late, Winzor Better after than during with all the backed up holiday mail and whatnot, but I'll probably send it out like Monday, and if I have enough Christmas money (which I should), then I'll do next day shipping.

The other is for Kanon and his mom. I didn't have any money to buy some gift gifts this year, and aside from the Zelda ecard thing I made, I didn't have the time (or inspiration, anyway)to make anything (would have made jewelry, but I customize them every year, and I had no money for new beads and materials)

My solution: use ingredients my mom ALREADY has or what she is willing to spend a few food stamp bucks on and bake cookies for everyone. Completely made from scratch beginning to end, every part of them :3

I even had red and green food coloring to work with YAY SHORTBREAD COOKIES! 8D

Also, my fam has a thing about waiting until midnight to be awake for Christmas. We start off with thanking God for Jesus and a prayer, then we get to the gift.

This year Mikey was "Santa" yet again and, though the year's been rough, we managed to put together a great Christmas, with a little tabletop tree and dollar store ornaments. Nina actually got gifts and wrapped them up all nice-like, and we surprised her by actually having a wrapped up gift for her, too OuO

Together (meaning with Nina's paycheck) we got a PS3 and Ratchet and Clank....I forgot which one right now, too tired to remember. With two controllers.

For the fam, Mikey got Metal Gear Solid 4. I have no idea where he got the money but we are gonna have some fun times fighting over who gets to play next XD

I got a new winter coat (though I got it almost a week ago now on the day the snow hit) and a new leather journal! 8D I've been wanting one of those!

Mami got a Hershey's dessert book and Greese (the musical) on DVD. The one with the little leather jacket X3

Papi got Smallville season 6. Mami almost wanted to get season 7 as well and only wrap up 7 to mess with him, then pull out 6 XD But she didn't have enough money for that.

Mikey got a new watch. It's an awesome black metal watch that he needs to get fitted to his arm a little better, but he loved it XD His reaction was the greatest...no, second greatest to Mami's Greese reaction XD

Nina got Professor Layton and the Diabolical Box for the DS. She was way surprised XD It was awesome.

Later today is...pretty much just dinner and that's it.



Oh yeah, ok, so, here's some household news. The two over 40 year old men around here finally convinced Linda to put the dog down. By the time I came home Thursday night *technically Friday morning* he had already been taken in.

Normally, people would be devastated to lose a pet. I am relieved that he doesn't have to go through the pain anymore. Yes, I'm still mad that she put it off in the first place, yes I'm angry that she's still pretending like he was some sort of cherished child or something (He was pretty much ignored from my experience here), but I at least now have some peace of mind knowing that he doesn't have to whimper for food because he can't stand up and that he won't have to walk around on swollen paws and a hunched over spine because he can't stand to put weight on his hind legs, or that he has to sit in his own piss because he can't walk outside, or has to take long labored breaths of pain just to continue living.

I'm actually glad that he no longer has to feel the immense pain that his decaying body and cancer were putting him through. Very glad. It's the humane thing to do instead of making him suffer through it.

Well anyway, so I'm going to...loiter or go to sleep, whichever my brain compels me to do for the time being. Probably update in #Realms-Adoptables seeing as just about no one entered the Christmas contests >_> oh well. Maybe I'll hide them away for next year, or change up the conditions on them, see if they get adopted then *shrug* maybe I'll just throw in an extension on the deadline for the ones that have no entries or something. *shrug*

OH YEAH, I have Christmas adoptabes there, non-contest. Still open for adoption, still able to be given as gifts. If anyone likes collecting adoptables, check them out over there.

Peace.

*edit*

So...end of Christmas didn't end well at all.
I'm....BETTER, about it. But I'm still rather upset about the whole deal.

Let's just say parental issues hit a new high, in front of friend and children even that aren't a part of the family.

My mom got the brunt of it. My friend from church had to witness me run off in tears. It wasn't...fun...at all.

My dad...can be a very scary person. To say the very, very least. On Christmas of all days. He didn't come to Thanksgiving, and didn't come to dinner for Christmas.

I'm at a loss. I really really am. I honestly have no idea what to do. I want to leave, just move away, but I don't want to leave the rest of my family behind. Especially knowing what I would be leaving behind. I just...I dunno.

I honestly have no idea what to make of any of it. I can't not love someone that I've always loved, but it hurts to do so. I can't hate people because I hate to hate, but I'm so very close half the time and I beat my own self up for it because I SHOULD NOT EVER HATE ANYONE. But...

It went too far. This time it went too far.

I really don't know what to make of it anymore. When another family member comes so close to being in physical danger, but isn't harmed, where is the line? I'm...just whatever.

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Litreally O_O

After a weekend being snowed in at Kanon's house, pretty fun aside from the MOST comfortable place to sleep was the recliner and STILL only got maybe 5 hours per night.

So I come home and pass out for a day. Literally.

I was supposed to go to Stony Point with my dad, but I didn't hear any alarms, any phone, any anything. I was GONE.

Though it didn't really help that my dad then blamed me for not getting up to take him. Then when I proceeded to tell him that he should have then woken me up, he said it was just an excuse.

So basically it's my fault that I missed and outing with my dad because I got no sleep all weekend. Hooray?

I literally felt like crap the rest of the day and avoided all human contact *there was general depression after my little bout yesterday over our soon-to-be-dead dog that's not actually our dog but might as well be seeing as we're the only people who even so much as pay attention to him, but I digress*, going BACK to sleep for 5 hours after being awake for 2 hours, bringing the total to 23 hours.

I love my family, but sometimes I can't stand them. Really.

So anyway, I'm over it, and I actually got a really awesome and much needed pick-me-up from this here animation. Seriosly, it's fantastic. Do watch it. I lol'd, hard.

I'm basically awake for the day. I'd say a good...14-16 hours from when I woke up at 12 am would put me back at somewhat tired, though, just cause I can't actually stay awake for a whole day so much as I can stay asleep for one. *shrug*

We're all going to go see The Princess and the Frog at like...11:30 am. Seeing as I'll probably still be awake from now until then, I'm probably just gonna chill on the webs, get up at about 8 for a shower and some breakfast, take some clothes to the washing machine, and wait for everyone else to get up.

And I swear if my dad complains about me being up so early for the movie as opposed to for going to Stony Point, which I WANTED TO DO JUST AS BADLY, IF NOT MORE SO *cabin fever and all*, then I will scream. I will scream and probably run my own head into the nearest wall, which is probably made of brick. I don't know why, it just is. Crap gets on my nerves, and you'd think having Mikey and Kanon double team me all weekend and not shut up just once would be enough.

As or this very moment, I'm not mad at Kanon, but Nina's my only awesome friend in the general Richmond area. Her and :devkokaxhoshi:, and I haven't seen the woman in over a week.

So yeah. I'm awake and um....stuff. May end up going back to Kanon's house later seeing as it's the only place I can actually stand when the siblings aren't around, and I can get my mind off of life by working. All day. Drawing, coloring adoptables, w/e.

I freakin want pancakes. >_>

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Just...yes.

Snowed in at Kanon's with the siblings for the last three days.
Going home today, later.

Stuff.

*edit*

ONE YEAR SUBBY! 8D
THANK YOU SO MUCH, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

*Second edit*

So for some reason, my pics won't upload to dA right now >_>

So I uploaded it to photobucket instead.
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Mmmmmmmmyes. Stuff.

So is off to a better start that I expected, actually. About a week in and I'm out of Duni until tomorrow XD I didn't expect 21 adoptables to go in one week O_o that's freakin three a day there! 8D

I'm about to start up a shopping system there, one that incorporates a sort of...like how Gaia has gaia gold. Only it's not gaia gold, it's whatever my over stimulated and sleepless brain wants to call it at the time.

Two ways to get it, earn in things like contests and the like *might even throw some in with a couple of extra special adoptables at some point* and buy some through a paypal account.

I've been wanting to do something like this for so long, something that combines my passion for art with my hobby of collecting and actually MAKE something of it! 8D I'm so very happy.

On the flip side, a couple things I'm NOT happy with...my lack of job and school, and my cousin.

See, my family and I have been living with our cousin for a while now. We do things like keep the house relatively clean about the things we're allowed to touch, feed the dog, stay quiet when need be, and get out of the house at every possible opportunity that arises.

This, however, is apparently not enough. My cousin, one that does not want to be judged by others, is constantly judging others. Hypocrite much? >_> She's getting on my last nerve, and everyone avoids her like the plague. I mean, I LIVE IN THIS HOUSE and I haven't seen the woman since Sunday. That's how secluded we all become once the van pulls up into the driveway. I'm sorry, I love her, I really do, and we can actually talk sometimes without extreme God talk or complaining for an hour, but living here has made those NICE conversations scatter and show up once in a blue moon.

The job and school...well, it is what it is. I'm working portfolio as well as adoptables. I've been having trouble being driven to make me some perspective landscapes, though. I started a cityscape, got bored. I started a cliffside, got bored. The only bg I've been able to finish was the one for the Wacom contest and, don't go kidding me now, there are easily a good 20+ other entries that are 1000x better than mine. I'm still praying for even so much as third place, but that's a LOT of prayer and extreme amount of luck on my part if I even get a glimpse of that.

Oh, one more thing that's not so good. The dog. He's gotten so very thin. He barely walks around, he has trouble climbing stairs, and he won't eat if the bowl is too far down for him to bend over. He looks terrible now and is constantly declining. Besides that, everything we tell his owner that he needs or that he's doing or when we try to say, let him outside when he wants to go instead of forcing him to wait until owner says so, she just won't listen to reason. It makes me sad to see Brisco suffer at all. He won't whine unless he's trying to get outside and no one will let him, but anyone can see that if he can't climb 4 steps and he leans in off of his hind legs, then he's in pain.

I'm half tempted to call the other cousin, because he said that if the dog started suffering then he'd take him in to but him to sleep. I don't want him to suffer. He's old, he's dying, and his in pain. It's bad enough that every time I pass by him, he looks up like those sad precious moments kids, like he's trying to tell me to help him when I can't do anything.

Bah. Anyway...

The crazy. It seems my brain has slowly been creeping away from me as of late. I attribute this to the sudden ongoing burst of creativity that eats away my mind and apparently causes me to forget to actually eat meals. Which I guess is a bad thing, though I could stand to loose some weight either way. I've also caught the strangest sentences coming out of my mouth and typed from my hands whenever I'm in chat or aim or sitting with friends.

I mean thinks that I am weird, and I'm extremely flattered, but of all my previous friends, I've always been the most normal XD Recently I can feel my brain going into giggle fits over things like "A bag of crushed a**holes" (it was said in chat, I swear) and making innuendos like no other. I'm not the innuendo person. I never have been. But lately I am. I don't know why.

I also average around 4 to 6 hours of sleep on days I go to Kanon's house, and get in about a good 7 to 8 when I don't go to Kanon's house.

I go to Kanon's house 5 to 6 days out of the week.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! 8D
*collapse*

Oh, and Star Wars roleplay started back up...last week? Yes, I believe so. And it's crazy. Fun stuff, and a battle every Friday! I also realize that though these past few days have been LONG AS HECK, the week itself flew by. It's like, two days ago it was Friday, and now it's Friday again.

...

...Whut?

So yeah, that's the news. Hopefully this adoptables thing kicks off and I won't have to worry SO much about money, though I still desperately need a job no matter what anyway, but at least something can help alleviate the issue. Getting paid for hobbies + art = WIN

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Oh oh oh! Before I forget, #Zelda-OC-Club is now an official dA group! 8D It's so awesome! I can update it from my main account no problems! 8D It's soooo amazing! *is full of happy*

Plus we're totally doing a Secret Santa in the club C: I'm hoping more people throw in their join notes for that, so yeah X3

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*second edit*

'Bout to hit up Ustream for a little bit if anyone's interested. The link's in the footer of my journal

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WOO I had a good day. So, the title is exaggerating a bit, seeing as the best day ever still stands at last Christmas, but I still had an epically awesome day.

Might have been the wrestling match *freaking let me work! XD* or the fact that I MADE DIGITALLY PAINTED CLOUDS THAT ACTUALLY DON'T SUCK! 8D, or the potato/chicken/cheese bowl from KFC with a Pepi that I haven't had in an age and a half, but whatever it was, today's cloudy sky would not get me down 8D

I'm happier today than I've honestly been in a while. And I'm thoroughly enjoying it 8D And to think just the past few days were such torture, and now poof, all gone in one day flat 8D

I have a new drive, new passion, new INSPIRATION to do so many things! My Wacom "Bring Your Vision To Life: Dreams" contest entry is looking spectacular! At this point, I refuse to look at the other entries until I've finished mine. Give me all the more reason to finish mine, so I can look at the others XD I have nine days left to finish and submit it, and I do believe that I can get it done in...mmm, no less than two days, no more than five 8D

THEN, I think I know what extra scene to add to the Christmas card 8D but I'm not telling X3 *pokes you all* You'll see it come Christmas for sure, if not sooner. Just gotta do the scene.

I'm thinking of throwing a couple of internet/youtube fads in there, only because I've been dying to do something with those since forever. But it's gonna wait until after I get these contest entries done 8D

*is so very happy right now* You know that feeling when you've had a good meal, and didn't over stuff yourself so that you're completely satisfied and your tummy has a happy? Well that's how I feel, with a little bit of rainbow on top.



*original*
So I have three weeks of sub left...

TT_TT

I've grow attached to having a sub. It's like...all pretty...and useful...and junk.
But it'll be gone soon. Meh. I'll get me a job and work on my projects and things will be peachy-keen.

I've been less than happy as of late, but like...yesterday a few things *though not all* got laid out and discussed and I feel tons better.

I still want to finish my novel I started for NaNo (though I lost NaNo....and the GAME 8D) but I'm going to have to break from that in order to do other projects.

SO HERE IS MY LIST FOR DECEMBER! I have to get these done asap.

1.) Wacom "Bring Your Vision to Life: Dreams" contest entry.
2.) Darksiders...was it end of dasy or last days? One of them, that contest too.
3.) *pikminlink con mascot entry. *I can't go to many cons, but I can enter contests
4.) Interactive Zelda Christmas card. I'll probably end up just doing the card, seeing as ideas for hidden scenes are lacking right now.
5.) Zelda playing card deck.

...Wow, only five things 8D I think I can actually handle that!

I'll also be working on *gasp* ACTUAL PORTFOLIO WORK! Nowaiomgtheendisnigh! Yeah, I'm tired of not being confident in myself enough to do it, and I keep putting it off. But I'm gonna. I might start with my dreams contest entry, seeing as it's fairly awesome *in concept, anyway, I haven't actually started making it digital yet *

I may do more than one depending on what ideas come to me, because though I like this one, it may lack some of that gusto that I'm looking for to really pop and call to people. It's rather tame, though still amazing.

So yeah...stuff...will do, go work now, yay :3

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